Lost Winter

As I walk down the dull grey streets

I see the snow flake of a lost winter descend

I look into its rough crystalline form

its jagged beauty

I float amongst its azure spearheads

sharp glistening chaos

it pierces me

fills me

it's part of me

I too am chaos

crystalline flesh and icy bone

It/I begin to melt away

I drip down the cold spikes

I flow perfectly through forming cracks

I am a torrent now

I rend apart my icy world with divine purpose

It's done

I'm back

Meat and bone again

Standing on the concrete scabs that conceal healthy earth

Fetid dead water oozes through the gutters

Black poisonous blood pouring over the scab

Polished metal lice scurry down the long scars

antennae waving, shiny metal chitin

they puff out smoke, their vaporous feces

I breath it in

Poison blood coats my shoes

It's all trying to enter me

Violate me

It wants to remove the memories

of my last lost winter

I breath out ice on my breath

to exorcise these demons

And I walk away

To look for my lost winter.